
I have vivid memories of the days i used to roller skate in the hall just up the road from my house.
I remember paying 50 cents for the rentals and skating laps around the hall to hits of the 80's.
There was definitely a sense of nostalgia when I bought the girls their own quad skates.
They just love to roll around, and as the season is slowly changing to summer, we soon will have the chance to skate outside all around.
This makes me happy.
As Katie still cant ride a bike, roller skates offer us an opportunity to do something new and fun.
Since January when I chipped a bone in my knee, I haven't been skating with the team.
This has been a real source of contention for me and has angered me to no end.
Its hard to be a part of a team when you cannot contribute.
The team has recently gone through some major changes with political/emotional differences leading the team to spilt.
It is difficult to manage my feelings at this time, every time I think of derby it makes me frustrated, leaving me upset with my inability to do it to the extreme that I want to be able to.
Sadly the spilt has also left me a bit sour.
This, the fact that I cannot commit the time needed and that I am physically behind.....grrrr.
I had make a decision.
I decided to respectfully withdraw for the time being.
This is sad but strangely liberating.
I was exhausted thinking about it all the time.
Tired of feeling guilty.
So now I am no longer a derby girl and I feel an emptiness, but a freedom.
I have some of my time back, to complete my quilts maybe.
Or to get into that garden that keeps yelling for me.
When I was skating, the girls were by default derby girls too.
And one thing that every derby girl must have is a name.
K and E each picked out theirs and I had shirts made.
Too cute!!


I'll hold onto my skates and my name.
I know this is not the end for me but merely a hiatus.