Comtemplating

We have 8 acres close to town on city water and the greatest neighbors anyone could wish for.

We feel the love on our land and thi sland gives us so much.

We live off it and play around it and raise our family here.

This is our dream property, but most definitely not our dream home.

Less than 1000 square feet and the 4 of us is getting to be very confining.

Initially I was in love with the log cabin life, the wood stove, the dark, warmth and coziness.

Now I need light.

I am tired of packing in wood.

I am frustrated with dusty, uneven wooden walls.

Now I am desperate for some color.

At this point even white is a color.

We have spent years, literally, trying to decide what to do.

Do we sell, do we build here, do we rent this and buy another.

Do we expand the current house and on and on.

We have paid architects to design renovations and then sit idle on them.

We have had so many ideas and they fizzle out.

We have priced out all our options and still we haven't made up our minds.

I think it is because we really have know all along.

We know we need to do something.

And now that opportunity has presented itself.

Yesterday we got wind of a piece of land, 5 acres, that has been reduced so much that we are seriously going to look and possibly put in an offer to tie it up.

We are excited and ready to move on.

I will miss this place.

I gave birth to E in this house.

We bought it and moved in 2 weeks befor K was born.

I have reaised the kids here.

But we could build a new home and at this point, this is thrilling to me.

For a long time I have been resistant to this because I know how much we have right here.

Why temp fate?

Right?

Temp it I am.

I am so ready to take it on.

I know I can take on the challenge of building a house while J works away and still maintain everyday life.

In fact I am so excited I am going to a lawyer tomorrow to see if we can subdivide the rental off and get more for our dollar.

Oh the possibilities.

I am dreaming of 5 rooms and a full basement, 2-3 bathrooms, huge kitchen, and a mud room and a laundry room....in fact just any ROOM.

Where each girl gets their own room and hopefully ajoining bathrooms.

Where I have a sewing/craft/office room and J an office and gym.

Space is the key.

Lots of space.

If you could see what we live in you would surely understand.

It is nice, it is clean and organized, and it is cramped.

Busting at the seems actually.

So onto a new adventure??

I sure hope so.